I Am Desperate For God
When I woke up this morning I went straight to the coffee pot, as I always do, to make my morning coffee. After I brewed a wonderfully dark pot of coffee, I stole away to the back deck. I have been wanting to sit outside and have my quiet time + coffee before the kiddos wake up for weeks now. They actually slept in this morning so I was able to sit outside for nearly thirty minutes. It was truly a miracle!
I sat in my red chair and just listened.
We live far enough away from the city to have some peace and quiet
The birds were loudly chirping and flying around enjoying their morning.
I heard cars speeding by undoubtedly going to work and school.
An ambulance came flying by with its sirens on speeding to rescue someone.
I slowly took a few sips of my coffee. It had the perfect cream to coffee ratio and that always puts a smile on my face. Life has been stressful lately and I have been struggling mentally and emotionally to keep pushing forward. There is no doubt that someone reading this tonight is in the same place.
The main reason I wanted to sit outside early this morning was to rid myself of distraction. I didn't have my phone with me or my daily planner reminding me of all the stuff I needed to do. I didn't have kids screaming for breakfast or fights breaking out. Yet.
It was just God and I. Peace. Quiet. Serenity.
I needed time to think. Pray. Maybe worry a little bit. Then ask God to forgive me for worrying.
I desperately need God to give me wisdom in several areas of my life right now. I desperately need Him to give me peace. I desperately need Him to ease my mind.
Desperation is defined in the Merriam-Webster Dictionary as, "A state of despair, typically one which results in rash or extreme behavior."
I am desperate for God.
I hate to admit that I sometimes forget to cling to God desperately when life is going smoothly. I want to always be desperate for Him and cling to Him in the good and bad. Instead of running to others or letting negative coping mechanisms take over, I want to cling to Him. He is safe.
As I listened to the birds chirp this morning I was reminded of Luke 19:37-40:
"And when he was come nigh, even now at the descent of the mount of Olives, the whole multitude of the disciples began to rejoice and praise God with a loud voice for all the mighty works that they had seen; Saying, Blessed be the King that cometh in the name of the Lord: peace in heaven, and glory in the highest. And some of the Pharisees from among the multitude said unto him, Master, rebuke thy disciples. And he answered and said unto them, I tell you that, if these should hold their peace, the stones would immediately cry out."
The stones would immediately cry out.
All of God's creation sings His praises even when we are silent. Think about that for a moment. God can cause rocks to cry out to Him because He made them. He made everything. The birds reminded me of that truth this morning. We can sing and be joyful even when life is headed down a particularly unknown path. I am learning that those paths bring the most growth. Those paths bring forth the most heartfelt praise.
Whatever you're walking through right now; desperately hold on to Christ. He knows exactly what He is doing and we can praise Him through it all just like the birds. Just as they happily chirp every morning without fail, we can praise Him because He knows exactly what we need and where we are headed.
Praying for you, friend!