Sometimes the journey just looks like this.
Stress + Anxiety + Life can be overwhelming.
Sitting in my closet trying to get myself together for five-seconds before I explode. Putting myself in a timeout to get my anxiety and overwhelming emotions under control.
We all find ourselves here.
Sometimes I pray and cry or both.
We all get here and it is OKAY. When did it not become okay to struggle?
I think that especially in the Christian community we tend to associate sharing our struggles with being ungrateful. We are scared to talk about our struggles for fear that someone will tell us we just need to be closer to God. OUCH!
Life can always be worse but we have got to stop telling people to get over it and move on. Where is the grace in that? God tells us in His word that it will rain on the just and unjust. Life is beautiful but will also be hard sometimes.
God cares about our troubles. I am sure you have walked through many difficult days and I am sorry. There are so many times when we just want someone to listen to our hearts. Thankfully, Jesus is always listening and never tires of our talking.
The first person who comes to my mind is Job. He was close to God. He was a faithful man. He was successful. He loved his family. He lost everything. His friends even assumed that God was punishing Him. If you read the book of Job you will see that God wasn't punishing job at all.
Job 1:1 says, "There was a man in the land of Uz, whose name was Job; and that man was perfect and upright, and one that feared God, and eschewed evil."
Hear me loud and clear: I am so thankful for my life.
I also struggle to my core at times.
Life is not always perfect and easy. I am thankful that life doesn't always go the way I want it to because growth is found in those difficult seasons. It doesn't make the difficult road any easier though.
I play referee while my kids fuss and fight.
The baby is pushing all the books off of the lamp shelf and I pick them up for the hundredth time before noon while the three year old is screaming at the top of her lungs.
The blog is taking off and I want to put eight-hours a day into building it but I can't.
Marriage can just be plain hard and messy.
Motherhood is stressful.
It can all get to you at times if you let it consume you.
Let yourself feel the overwhelming emotions to your core and then remind yourself of the purpose and goal. It is so easy to stuff how we are feeling deep in our hearts and then say we are "fine".
It is okay to let yourself have an off day or week or even month. The difficult and absolutely necessary next step to take is to keep going. Cry, laugh, yell, and beg God to move in your situation and then get back up and go on. I have been catching myself letting that last sentence flow through my mind lately. I am guessing someone else reading this needed the reminder too.
Proverbs 24:16 says, "For a just man falleth seven times, and riseth up again: but the wicked shall fall into mischief."
In the midst of the overwhelming days there are even MORE amazing days that look like this!