I realized last night, after staying up way past my bedtime, that my pesky indigestion was acting up. I remember dealing with these types of stomach pains in high school along with a whole host of other stomach issues. I haven't had stomach issues in years. Literally it has been years upon years without a trace stomach issues. When I used to have stomach problems I firmly-believed it was stress-related and diet related. When I stopped stressing and started eating better, the stomach pains and issues all magically went away. I have always believed that stress can make you sick. Lately, I haven't really changed my diet--except I have had a few more cookies than normal--but my stress levels have changed. I haven't had much of an appetite, my stomach has been burning, and I just know that feeling that stress gives me when I have gone on empty far too long.
With the stress comes anxiety and fear.
The weak spot in my spiritual armor.
I've been battling fear and anxiety and bottling up a lot of junk in my heart (not a positive coping mechanism). I know that this is why my body has been off. If you like to stuff your feelings deep inside and act like all is well; you understand what I am saying. Fear and anxiety creeps up in my heart if I don't pay close enough attention to my daily walk with Christ. Just like the nagging stomach ache that causes me pain, fear nags at me if I let it.
If I let it.
If you let it.
I want you to stop letting it nag you.
I want to stop letting it nag me too.
It slowly creeps in and tried to make me forget that God already conquered darkness. That is a biblical truth.
John 8:12 says, "Then spake Jesus again unto them, saying, I am the light of the world: he that followeth me shall not walk in darkness, but shall have the light of life.
1 John 1:5-7 says, "This then is the message which we have heard of him, and declare unto you, that God is light, and in him is no darkness at all. If we say that we have fellowship with him, and walk in darkness, we lie, and do not the truth: But if we walk in the light, as he is in the light, we have fellowship one with another, and the blood of Jesus Christ his Son cleanseth us from all sin."
I still feel afraid. The emotion that comes with fear is still there but the truth is that it is all lies. Fear Is A Liar, a phenomenal worship song by Zach Williams, sings of this truth. It may feel scary but in my heart I know that God has conquered all darkness. Sometimes I get really afraid. I get completely out of sorts and even terrified. Fear has always been a weak spot in my spiritual armor. If you find yourself in this same battle, I want you to know that you're not alone. Your faith is strong but you still feel scared. I get it. We have all been there at least once or twice. I bet the disciples on the ship were afraid even after Jesus got on the boat with them to calm the storm. I bet they worried it would happen again. We tend to worry about the future even though God has delivered us so many times before. Fear truly is a liar. Jesus conquered the darkness, friend.
Hold onto His promise and don't let fear hold you back.