God has been making Himself very loud and clear lately.
Don't you just love it during those times? It always seems to be the really stressful or difficult seasons that you notice His presence more. This could be due to the fact that we often forget Him when life is going our way. It reminds me of the old hymn "Come Thou Fount of Every Blessing".
"O to grace how great a debtor Daily I’m constrained to be! Let Thy goodness, like a fetter, Bind my wandering heart to Thee. Prone to wander, Lord, I feel it, Prone to leave the God I love; Here’s my heart, O take and seal it, Seal it for Thy courts above."
We are so prone to wander. I am prone to wander and forget God's goodness in my life. Maybe you feel as if you wander off a lot as well.
The current life season I am in is a stressful one. There are a lot of unknowns and questions and it is just driving this type-a gal particularly nuts.
God is cultivating patience inside of me and is revealing things in my heart that I need to change during this though and that makes all the difference. It is uncomfortable but necessary as He always knows best. As I was flipping through my planner, I noticed that at the beginning of this year (how are we halfway through the year people?) I listed four "words to live by". I felt as if the breath was knocked right out of me when I read the words that I listed on the page. These have been my struggle areas lately.
I don't recall writing those four words down but apparently God knew that those words would carry me through 2019 and mean something to me.
I lack in these areas greatly.
I fail to extend grace to others.
I fail to give of my time, money and talents.
I struggle with change which hinders growth.
I have a hard time enjoying the moment.
2 Corinthians 12:9 says, "And he said unto me, My grace is sufficient for thee: for my strength is made perfect in weakness. Most gladly therefore will I rather glory in my infirmities, that the power of Christ may rest upon me.”
Although I am weak; He is strong.
He is showing me how to extend grace to others more easily.
He is showing me how to give to others using my talents, time and money.
He is showing me how to accept change and let it promote growth.
He is showing me that all I have to worry about is today and enjoy it to the fullest.
Where are you at? You may have a list of words to live by that are opposite of mine. Where I lack in my Christian walk you may excel. Take time to reflect on where you are in your Christian walk and let God show you where you're struggling. Nine times out of ten we already know our weak areas and just need someone to pull up a chair and be with us. We don't want a judgmental speech or even a solution; we just need a listening ear.
You're going to get through this.
You need to give yourself grace.
You're not alone.
Praying for you always, friend!